I don't want to lose my delf

I don't know why I will lose myself,I don't know which actor I am,I feel I was so fail in anything,my love and my everything,I can't get any ,just only a little I can I get,sometimes I do something maybe he will think that is so simple or not useful,the more I consider for him ,the more I think I was no significant,I am thinking maybe one day I will never be his necessarity,I think moer and more,I understabd his thoughts,but that lets me feel my life is not myself,and if one day I can'tdo any for him and what he will do,now he loves himself and his future,he will tell me everything he do all for me,whether I need to trust him ,I don't know what I want him to do,I don't know what I WANT?