I loved you, for a long time

Night of the sea can not see clear whether it's calm or not
Night with a wind to anctionce about the Silk 
Sea breeze blow  my cheeks  
I sword  the tears lightly
Sad melody in the hands of venting 
he is not reality fucked me
Remain in the minds of his 
It was always in my mind constantly expanding…… 

I knowed he when i was in high school. 

He is the third year in the transfer. 

We became good friends. 

At the time I do not know when, like a good friend of his on. 

He always joked that I introduce her boyfriend to help, or ask me to help him on his girlfriend. 

Every time his words, I feel pain, it seems, are with him only to the fact that I was good friends. 

I can only with a laugh, to do with the Buzai Yi said, I also do not want to pay her boyfriend, I have no friends can introduce. 

But he always, the amuse me happy, intentionally or unintentionally. 

I bored, and I came to speak. 

I find on MSN chat, in my stealth not long on off the assembly line. 

To go out in time, will be on MSN told me that, even if only on the line for five minutes. 

This, he let me every day bogged down in distrust and wrestling race. 

Gradually, a graduate of hours of arrival. 

After graduation, also admitted to their different schools. 

At first, we always contact, often on MSN chat. 

But after school started busy, we have lost contact. 

I would hazard a guess of whether he paid his girlfriend. 

But I did not dare to identify, I dare not call themselves afraid to disturb him, afraid to know the truth, have to face heartbreaking. 

Graduated from university, in this period also a number of suitors. 

But my heart to the high school, he knows he and I will not have results, I still Kan Bukai, even if we have not in the four years after contact. 

I did not test or TOEFL Institute, I am into a foreign company. 

Frequent daily in the work of the spirit of pressing their own light. 

During this period, and I still can not love others, I tried, but I am not. 

I want him cleared my heart, but only for their own Yuexianyueshen. 

Life is like opera, drama is like life. 

I also encountered him. 

A company business trip, I took him to Japan. 

The Tokyo streets at night, I walk with the purpose of random. 

In front of the shadow, I see that familiar-looking. 

I started in the streets, chasing Zhena seen, but I recover lost. 

I casually walked the lethargy, try to find the. 

When I give up through a crossroads, it was the point I gently on the shoulder. 

I look back and see him. 

Shi Shi of his asthma, his face with a big smile. 

Out of the tears in my eyes, his arms toward me. 

He is only a pat my head and said to me: I intimidated you? » 

I am in his arms listening to his strong heart, shaking his head. 

Later, we find a cafe to sit down. 

He said to me in the street he saw a woman like me. 

So quickly recover from the, really did not expect I encountered in different places. 

I said to him, perhaps because it is in a foreign country, have their own understanding of the people, the will can not help but cry out. 

We Liaoliaohenduo events of the past, and the current situation. 

We exchanged telephone, E-MAIL, MSN numbers, and addresses. 

After returning home, we chat every day on MSN, in a telephone conversation before bed, when the holiday trips together. 

However, we are not men and women friends. 

In this way after more than two months. 

In a holiday, a friend and I go out shopping. 

Fair-almost, a friend said to go to the toilet. 

Together we reached the stairs, I saw a man and a woman in that hold together. 

I was not too much attention, but the man you raise your head, I can not go to see. 

Because actually he is and I am calm smile on his smile, and then pulled a friend, turned around going out. 

I do not know that they should not be the cry, a friend I walk with the Yitouwushui. 

I had to kill him, I suddenly is not physical discomfort, so would like to go back to the. 

Before returning home, he has made many telephone calls have come.

I do not have access, I do not know what kind of tone to use to face him. 

I returned home, and so on, I just quietly sitting in the bed of his mind and have her picture together. 

And so I Huiguoshenlai, the days are black. 

Look at the phone, automatic shutdown, because it has no power. 

I changed the battery, an open, there are dozens of good-not-to-call of. 

I did not call back, I opened the computer, on the MSN. 

He did not online, perhaps with her Haigen it. 

In fact, he can be happy, I should bless him, is not it » 

Because we can not be together, I already know that this is not the right thing » 

I cried, although it is impossible to know clearly together, but that he and others together, or a broken heart. 

Crying for a long time, I趴to cry in front of the computer fell asleep. 

Wait until daybreak, the sun in my face, I have to. 

The washing-bath, watching in the mirror its own floating Tong eyes. 

I return to the front of a computer, a number of messenger, I point him that. 

Finally just before the message is issued. 

Inside reads: 

You at home? » 

I have been called, nobody then. 

Today, you misunderstood. 

I am in your home, and so a long time, but you have not answered the phone. 

You? » 

You? » 

You? » 

I think it's no good to explain it. 

I am not your Shuia. 

This is from the past. 

I will be armed with their own. 

I returned to his MSN. 

I: HI. 

He: HA, you go by. 

He: do not take the call, MSN also did not return. 

I: SORRY, I am shocked by the telephone, did not feel that. 

I: I drove home computers, fell asleep. 

He: I go to you, I have something to say. 

I: There are so » 

I: I would like to go out of the Ye, and I had a friend Yuehao. 

I: 88啦. 

I immediately under the line. 

Because I do not want you to give me a false impression of a Silk.

I think you have it a little bit like me. 

So that there is a little bit of their own expectations, and then sad. 

I closed the computer, Tangdao bed, not tears of Clear the Air descend. 

I do not know the duration of sleep and was awakened by phone to the sound. 

He is, I now up. 

I: Hello. 

He: Do you go home? » 

I: ah, I had at home. 

I: emergency? » 

He: I look How are you » 

I:…… 

He: You are listening? » 

I: ah. 

He: I think you misunderstood yesterday, the thing is…… 

I: That it is not important, you have a girlfriend, ah well. 

I feel my voice trembling. 

He: It is not as you think. 

He: He is my friend, she likes me, but I do not like her, and then I take her to tears. 

I: Do you from the past is the case, is not it » 

He: I, like I already have the people. 

I had the palpitations. 

I: The good, ah, do not know that girls so lucky. 

I: I would like to link the…… 

He: Do you hear me finish it. 

I:…… 

He: I like that person, I was in high school, her knowledge. 

I waited for her long time, because I do not have the courage with her confession. 

Because I always thought that I was her only friend. 

I started high school there is no reference to a girlfriend. 

Because I have a heart she has been there, she has my heart filled. 

At that time, if only a small greetings, the day can make my day. 

Later, not long graduated, we lost contact, I am busy she also busy, so I dare not disturb her. 

It was so Guolehaojiu. 

In three months ago, I met her in Japan. 

I do not believe my eyes, so I Zhuizhuo her all the way, until at a crossroads. 

I gently point the guts of her back. 

This month, I am really very happy. 

Until yesterday, she saw a girl I was holding. 

When she laughed, I just laugh, and then turned around to leave, my Xinliang by half. 

I began to hit her crazy phone. 

I went to her house downstairs, and so her, but she has not appeared, the phone has not received. 

I am disappointed and impatient to go home, open the computer. 

Watching her on MSN, I know that he misunderstood me. 

I would like her to explain, but she did not return to me, I kept the banner of the message until the morning. 

I want to tell her that I have not met her in the three months ago. 

My family forced me to each other, and then I have to marry that girl. 

I do not want to, but I still accepted. 

And met her, I persuaded the family, marriage Tuidiao this door. 

Because I met her, I love the people in life, I can not allow her from my life, the slip once again. 

And that I take the girls, is that I was Tuidiao marriage of people. 

Then I, long ago broke down in tears, than the original we miss this for so long. 

He: SAN I love you, long for a long time, you are willing to marry me? » 

I: Did you know ... » I also love a long time for a long time, from high school until now, the bad guys, I am certainly prepared to. 

He: Then, I can now go to you? » 

His voice sounds so ecstasy. 

I: ah. 

We hang up the phone. 

Now all my heart to be filled with joy, we missed the original so long. 

I put on my favorite clothes, waiting for his arrival. 

After half an hour, one hour. He had not been to. 

Disturbed by the heart, began to climb up my mind. 

Then call sounded. 

I: Hello. 

He: Hey, I am approaching your home, in your home Xiangkou such as the green light. 

He: I am really very happy. 

He: I…… 

His words not finished, telephone Lique sound came out of the collision sound. 

I am impatient on the phone this end shouted his name. 

I left phone, start wild, running down the stairs, outside the alley, came to the junction. 

I saw his car, not the impact of car-shaped. 

I went to the driver's seat, I saw him, tears started wild. 

Watching pallor of his blood and his body covered with climbing face. 

He slowly open their eyes a little bit, weak shout my name, and then give me a sign he smiles. 

I would like to help him open doors, but the deformation of the body does not allow me to do so. 

He shut the eyes, I can only call him in the side of the name. 

, Around the noisy again. 

Police cars and ambulances have to, someone I pulled aside. 

They began the efforts of his car and was rescued. 

I emerge and the blood, the body is injured him, to the hospital together. 

I now the head are all blank. 

In the operating room, I, sitting in the seats,脑子里闪过that he and I all. 

Those were the good things he amuse my way, his unique style of the big signs smile. 

I fell in love with his all all. 

I do not know how long a time, his family began to appear, his mother holding my tears. 

Chourong the face of his father, paced around. 

His brother and sister sitting next to me, comfort us. 

Opened the door, walk out of doctors. 

Not what I heard, they say so, from my left ear Piaoguo right ear, but did not enter my thinking. 

Because I did not feel anything has. 

His parents entered the surgery room. 

After all of a sudden, his parents out, told me that he wanted to see me. 

I walked into the. 

To see who are the instruments he. 

I dry the tears began to wild. 

He said to me weak: 

SAN, high school, I did not take full advantage of you, I regret it. 

As I said, I love you, long for a long time. 

I am sorry I can not give you happiness, but also let you cry for me. 

Really, if Chonglaiyici, I will let you start to understand, even if the final is heartbreaking. 

I really hope that together with you until we have white hair, I will put you on the care of palms. 

I really love you, really. 

I cried fell on him, I gently in his ears: I love you long time, I really love you. 

I have no blood of his Chunshang printed on a kiss. 

In this connection, he shut the eyes, no longer open. 

In this connection my heart, with him, not for whom to open the door. 

Because no one can be in my mind more than his weight. 

I do not blame that hit his drunk driving, I Zhiguai we do not have good grasp each other, Zhiguai we missed the start. 

I do not feel sad for themselves, because I know that people have a long long time in my mind, at least, I loved. 

I like our coast, opened a shop. 

There is a great pianoin the store , I was playing those romantic songs. 

Seeing some success in this marry him and watched pair of lovers of sweet sweet like honey. 

I am happy for them, because they grasp the other side. 

After the close, sometimes in the shop, I will Tanzhe those we love song. 

Be assured of their wish to let you, as you have been around me the same. 

Through the fingers of the melody, I feel your presence. 

If the next life, I will bravely, so you know, I love you.