When you were alive,i haven't come to this world,but when i have,you have gone

o the implementation of policy since the rural town on the station I met with the landfill watch, a beautiful, quiet 
A small baby, many people around, he stepped forward, and that of his baby girl Can Ran smile. He gave me a home and gave me a beautiful name, Tao Yao. Later, he said, I had that smile, Chengde Qi Taozhiyaoyao, Zhuozhuo its China. 

Zheye extremely Beiqi life, his parents are returned scholars, has not escaped the catastrophe of that culture, 
Frustration in both Qishi, Zheye naturally also not spared, with the rural areas, and the love of his girlfriend Laoyanfenfei years. He Jieranyishen Since then, until the 35-year-old picked up when I returned to the city. 

I called the Zheye uncle. 

In my childhood memories and not too many unhappy. Just get rid of one thing. 

At school, the class of men and a few mischievous students scolded me "kind of wild," I cried to go home and tell Zheye. 2 
Now, I deliberately days Zheye school, those few boys asked: Who says she is the kind of wild » Small boys see a tall Zheye the portly, did not dare Chusheng, Zheye sneer: Who again so that next time, let me hear the case, I Zoubian him! It was Digu, she is not your health, is the wild species. Zheye holding my hand back laugh: But I also baby daughter than she. Which letter does not stand out to me, who are the clothes of her beautiful » Who shoes bags than her good looks » She drank milk every morning to eat bread, you eat what » All of a sudden the children are discouraged. 

Since then, no one is scolded me too wild species. After a big, think of it, I always Shixiao. 

My life than the general orphans, to much more fortunate. 

My favorite is the study. House full of books, big bright windows Zheye under the desk, the sun 
When he concentrate on the work of the Xuanang silhouette like a backlight of the painting. I always find their own books, found on the Waterloo on the sofa. At one, Zheye I will look back at one of his smile than the winter sunshine outside the more Huoxu. See tired, I趴in his shoulders, he quietly read the article drawing. 

He laughed: grown up I have done this trip » 

I Piezui: not only, Shaide so black and dirty is dirty dead. 

Ah, I forgot that Zheye is a construction engineer. But also non-destructive weathered that his appearance. He Yong 
Far Wenya clean, Fengduopianpian. Intermittent, is not a woman to enter Zheye life. 

My eight-year-old, had once, almost to Zheye Tanhunlunjia and a woman. That is an old woman 
Division, smart and beautiful. Do not know why I do not like her and feel her smiling face of a boost as paste, Zheye in, she told me You Tianyou gentle smile, not that smile on Bianxi Fa not like. I am afraid of her. I have days in the balcony view picture book, she asked me: do you pro-Diema » Has not had a look at your » I stayed, watching her do not know Shuishimehao. She Zeze两声, said that this child, stupid, no wonder they do not want you. I Zhengzhu, suddenly came Zheyetieqing Zhaolian, Qian Qi my hands on what is said to room. 

I am a stuffy night in the yard crying. Zheye into, I take that fear, Yaoyaobuku. 

Later, the woman is not good-bye on our family have come. 

Then I heard a good friend Chiu-Zheye asked him, how good is a casual » Zheye that this woman heart 
Unrighteousness, marry her, Yao Yao will not have a good day. - Qiu said that you should never forget Hippeophyllum. Eight-year-old I firmly remember the name. I know that after a big, Hippeophyllum is Zheye then girlfriend. 

We have been Xiangyiweiming. Zheye to handle everything well, let me spend the smooth and healthy youth 
Period. 

I am admitted to university, the school is far away from home, the resident, the weekend before returning home. 

Zheye sometimes ask me: you have a boyfriend » I always Xiaoxiao silence. But there are several schools still 
The total outstanding boys like me turn around, but I do not see a Shunyan: But a tall handsome man, but a third-rate performance; B homework Yes, eloquence is also very good, but it looks ordinary; C homework are good looks, temperament Quesi A Mangfu…… 

I rarely speak and male students. In my eyes, they are childish and shallow, one in front of people on too late in trying to 
The best demonstrated by the side, the signs too of being too prudent. 

20-year-old birthday, Zheye gave me the gift is a ruby-ring. Such sporadic jewelry, Zheye 
Have begun to help me buy his argument is: the big girls, need to have a few decent things decoration. After his meal with me Guangshang Chang, what I like and immediately bought. 

To school, I found that sensitive students like me behind the scenes discussions. I do not mind. Because they 
The background, people have used the debate. Until one day a good female students in private to me pulling: They say you have a lot of great older than you boyfriend » I am puzzled: Who says the » She said: It is said there are several people to see, you talked to him Guangshang Chang, very affectionate? No wonder they say you Kan Bushang Qiongxiao Zi, is near the original Kong Fangxiong! I Lueyisisuo, red face slowly, Guo Yihui laughs: They misunderstood.

I have no explanation. The sitting quietly reading books, faces the heat a long time not faded. 

Weekend home, as usual, Clean-up. Zheye room clean, he Changchuan ride in the Winter Chuangyan 
On. It is brown the pieces metre, from bottles, originally taken the time to buy the Jixin Ling is a grey, and I pick this case. At that time, Ye said with a smile, and good, according to you, it seems that small Yao Yao is suspected of my old, I dressed up to this point the young. 

I slowly stacked Zhena clothes, smiling the sake of some piecemeal chores. 

The next period of time I found Zheye state of mind is very good, walking gait Qingjie wind, occasionally 
He phbbbbt heard some songs, like when inverted a bit when I admitted to the University of the way. I wonder. 

Friday, I received Zheye phone, I have to go home, go out and eat dinner with him. 

He shaving changing clothes. I Hu Yi: Some people help you on a girlfriend » Zheye laugh: I have the old man, 
To talk about his girlfriend, Chiu is your uncle, there is a also an old friend of many years, will you called her Auntie leaves on the line. I know that, it must be Hippeophyllum. Zheye the road told me that some time ago through the non-Chiu, and he Hippeophyllum links, and her husband died a few years ago, the re-see, I feel both can also, if there is no accident, they prepared to get married. 

I would not be a Jingxin, gradually feel cold feet, up slowly spread. 

To the hotel, I am very objective of the Daliang Hippeophyllum: Wei Pang, it is not bloated, still somewhat young Mei Yujian 
The Charm, and compared with the age of the woman, she no doubt still have the advantage. But with the Zheye Yingting stand together, she looks much older. 

She told me very good, very cordial, a Aiwujiwu look. 

To a home Zheye asked me: Do you think that kind of Auntie how » I say: Do you plan to get married, of course I said 
Well. 

My eyes open until midnight before falling asleep. 

I returned to school sick. Fever, Chengzhe not Kenla classes, Zhijue top-heavy, and finally Zaidao in the classroom. 
I woke up lying in the hospital, the link Diaoping, Zheye sitting next to read. 
I am tired of laughter: This is where I » Zheye strained to touch my head: finally wake up, to the flu virus 
Pneumonia, the child you always do not care. I laughed: to illness, care what way » 

Zheye addition to work, is in the hospital. Often wake up from sleeping on the immediate search of his person, it is necessary to immediately 
See, can feel at ease. I heard a telephone conversation he and Hippeophyllum: Yao Yao sick, I not empty the past few days, and so I told her the good to you. I bleak laugh, if I disease, Shouzhao I let him every day, then why not, I can not afford a long illness. 

Living in hospital a week before returning home. Zheye in my room facing the entrance of the sofa, lying on the evening of the above, I slightly 
He Jiupaqilai access movement. 

I think more small time, I put on a small bed Zheye the room, I would like to the middle of the night on the toilet, 
On the exploration of their own, but soon Zheye always heard, to help me Kaideng, said: Yao Yao carefully ah. I have been to primary school before their sleep. 

Hippeophyllum bought a large holding flowers and fruits to visit me. I politely thank her. She's done a good food to eat, but I eat
Over. I very early on the back of the room to lie down. 

I dream. Hippeophyllum dreamed Zheye and finally get married, they are very young, wearing white Hippeophyllum the non-appearance 
Often beautiful, and I am such a big surprise is the sub-Huatong serve as the role. Zheye pleasant smile, but I did not look back at one, I clearly heard the bride's bouquet of lilies on Piaolai Qingxiang…… I see the Zuoqi, the Peter. Banshang, lying back, desperate Bishang Yan. 

I heard the dark Zheye into, then head of the small lamps set. He sighed: What a dream » Kude 
So formidable. I Zhuangshui, but leaking tears as the dragon head, his eyes drop down to the ears. Zheye warm fingers time and again to those designated tears, but how can also stop. 

This disease, Chanmian more than 10 days. Such as cured, and I Zheye have lost a great circle. He said: to go home 
Live it, so many people a school dormitory, the bad air. 

He opened motorcycle escort me every day. Face Tiezhuo his back, always Mandrax-Mandrax heart of the tragedy. 

After Hippeophyllum Molai Guo no longer our home. After a long a long period of time, I am sure, and also Hippeophyllum 
The female teacher, is the past tense. 

I graduated from the smooth, his inauguration. 


I am happy, serene the lead, not next to Wu, and I only Zheye. Since I can not say anything, 
Mody so to maintain the status quo is good. 

But God has refused to give me this long-term well-being. 

Zheye halo to the site. Late diagnosis of liver cancer is a doctor. I Jigong heart pain, but still know very cool 
Asked the doctor: How many days » The doctor said: One year, perhaps longer. 

I Zheye home. He is not bedridden, I go to work during the day, a part-time care, noon and night 
, I take care of him. 

Zheye said with a smile: to see, let me drag, which should be out about it and boyfriend. 
I laughed: boyfriend » It is not only Dengxian Wanshuiqianshan. 

Every day after dinner, I go out and walk Zheye. I Wanzhe his arm. Remove thinner than in the past, he still 
Yi is tall, in the eyes of outsiders, it not a Tianlun map, only I, in the beautiful image visible under the cruel truth. I am a sober sadness, I can see clear and I Zheye the final day by day in the rapidly disappearing. 

Zheye very quiet life as usual. Reading books, design drawings. Zhongdian Gong said that every day he has most of the time is Tamna 
In the study. 

I like to study more. After dinner the bubble is always a cup of tea, and Zheye relative and sit under the coordinated, a fight for
Poker. 

He then helped Zheye collate the information. He provides a pile of things I am not allowed to move. I am curious. Finally taking advantage of his absence on the 1st look. 

It is thick several Wallace diary. 
"Yao Yao of the two incisors, pick up her work, shaking the Pushang to me to have." 
"Yao Yao 20-year-old birthday wishes Zheye uncle always said to the young. I Kaihuai, small Yao Yao, she was my loneliness 
Jie Yuhua of a career. " 
"Yao Yao sent today to report back to university, she always their first, I Jingjue she has grown into a beautiful little 
Women, and I, just weeping Chuilao. Hope that her life not as I do Guku. " 
"I told Chiu-Hippeophyllum Recent However, to meet not as I imagined in the Shen Chi. She has a lot of old, though, 
Light at the elegant unchanged. She did not conceal the affection I have remaining. " 
"Yao Yao pneumonia. Drowsiness in non-stop chanting my name, I will only wake up in tears flow. I was shocked. I thought 
Hippeophyllum to be married to her and the impact of such a large. " 
"Yao Yao sent back to school, think back cooler Sousou, take off clothes view, the only wetlands found a good one. 
Alas, this child. " 
"Doctors announced that I left the life of one year. I am not afraid, but Yao Yao, she is my a major event. I died, 
How to get her healthy and happy life, is my primary consideration. " 
…… 

I Pengzhuo diary book, the tears fell Susu. He is aware of the original, he is aware of the original. 

In a few days, Nadie book on the missing. I know that Zheye had already dealt with. I know that he did not want him to know 
I thought, but he did not know that I have already know. 

Zheye is the second year of taking the spring. Dying, holding my hand he said: You want to have personally delivered a 
Good boy hands and watch him wear the ring to help you go, too late. 

I smile. He forgot, my rings, 20-year-old when he helped me buy. 

His desk drawer a letter from a few brief: Yao Yao, I went to, I think, but do not always 
I was to read, you can be quiet and peaceful life, is the biggest comfort to me. His uncle. 

I do not have the Kude Huntianheide. 

The middle of the night awake, I also heard him say it seems: Yao Yao carefully ah. 

Finishing in the study of the debris, I found a corner cabinets full of dusty pottery, very simple Fun 
To, I come up with, wash clean, spent, what the above have not decorated, only four Yan style: Health-jun Health I have not, I have the old health-jun. Henbu Health at the same time, day and good-jun. 

To then, my tears, only unbridled raging down.